random, because i really am supposed to be doing my bio lab report right now, just that i've been unfocussed and not on task. oh well, it happens like, everytime.

my parents, they kpkb me very often now. even on my birthday. just because they were fed up, for a totally unreasonable reason they just shot at me. and it stayed this way the whole day. my birthday yah. they ain't give no fuck about it. recently because we're moving house, they still come kp whenever they feel like it. just because they're frustrated doesn't mean they can vent it out on me. AND, i wonder if anyone has been through the feeling of your parents ignoring you. it's like you try to tell them something, and though you're like standing right in front of their faces, just a few words into the sentence, they look off to somewhere else and just shut their ears to you. they even turn to talk to someone else. i mean, where the fuck has the basic respect gone to? and it just rips me to know that even my own parents don't give a care about listening to me. my parents. the people who lies about 'oh we care and we're always here to listen how come you don't share with us your problems' shit. i was so hurt today that in the midst of my sentence, i just stopped abruptly and walked off and teared. and they didn't even fucking noticed that i've stopped talking and walked away. some shit. we should have all went our separate ways last year. _|_ you both assholes.

on a lighter note, next two weeks is electives week. although i can't garantee that there won't be homework or projects, i think it's gonna be pretty slack as we have only like one hour of school. but i plan to use the remaining free hours to really study hard for the upcoming japanese test, do my homework, and yeah the rest i'll think about it later =
&just now, aaron was telling me about how he taught these little children how to play hockey today. he went on and on about how they were so cute in their little gears and stuff. he said one of them told him, 'aaron kor kor don't let go off my hand ok?' and my heart practically melted. i taught the whole thing was really sweet (: he's like really happy whenever he's close to kids which gives me the O___o;; feeling cause i was expecting it to be just the opposite. but somehow, although i really like watching people play with kids, i just cannot approach them myself and play with them. i don't like them cause i don't think they're particularly cute or anything, just no feelings at all. but good for him, i can imagine him being a really good father in the future. now i'm starting to think that i'm pretty cold-blooded. but they can get on my nerves pretty often so yah. then he says to me, 'i really can't understand how come someone, a girl like you can not like children.' well, it beats me too, and when i find out why, i'll be sure to tell you.

great, for now i think i was born a really angsty person. so peace out.

{ C }
the kind of girl who mopes around about stuff ALOT
& somedays on mute mode

A LEFT-HANDER WHO FEEDS ON JROCK :D

Is a caffeine addict, & doesn't mind giving up talking for good. With not much self-confidence to start with, her ugly teeth upset her a lot but she plans to do nothing about it. Cheap thrills include rainy days, graphic designing, writing & a little dosage of her jrock darlings. Can conjure up some really good shit in her mind sometimes, but has problems putting them onto paper and into reality. Overall an average kid who's neither here nor there in everything she does, & gets bothered by it sometimes. Has trouble finding her direction in life. Mostly negative and wishes to be more apathetic. Currently finding a way to start a new life in Japan, with a different name.

Still likes to talk to inanimate things like her stuffed penguin.

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